Birthday(29th) Invitation Poem

Long after eight..
Possibly two hours late
If you wish to put on weight
Or merely hang with your mate

(Un) Fortunately no wine...
"But Hey aren't you 29!"
This decision is not entirely mine
But Coca Cola should also be fine!?

After Singing and seeking more (at the conference.)
We might be boogying on the floor
Its Ok if you're not rhythmic to the core
Zinzi, out of 10 I bet you'd score me a four!

Or maybe a game of Mafia
Its been so long I can hear some of you cheer!
Whether we play or talk, or just having u guys near
I think the point of my poem is becoming clear

Every year, Christmas in July
There is so much symbolism to this I can tie
25 means grace intesified
A celebration of Grace, is exactly why!

So if you're there on Saturday night
10 till late, this is your invite
Depending on the numbers we may have to club together for daait :)
But lets try and make a way...If you're there I think it will be tight!

Hope you can make a plan
Ladies and Guys be a MAN!
Only this year to party in my 20's I still can
After that, my birthday parties may be banned! (YEAH RIGHT!)

So come on people, gifts not compulsory,
I love you and I hope you love me
Come celebrate and make my 29th birthday crazy!
I'm still here, I'm still blessed, There's Grace what a better reason to Party!

You BETTER BE THERE!

- Chandre (22 July 2009) inviting people to my 29th birthday on 25 July 2009

Everlasting Arms

I once told someone "Just hold me..." They couldn't just hold me. Nor could they understand that was all I wanted. To be held. The assurance and freedom that comes from being in someone's arms. However,
even if they could just hold me, I realise now the yearning and longing I had was so much deeper. Human arms wouldn't do. I now understand it was my spirit crying out to His Spirit. Deep calls to deep, the Psalmist says.

The best thing about it all is that though my searching to be held was taking me on a path of destruction, the Lord knew. He saw, He heard, He intervened. And now I find myself months later learning to be held by everlasting arms. Dancing with the lifter of my head. Adoring the lover of my soul. Being healed, freed, mended, pruned, shaped, enlarged, but mostly, loved.

Thank you Lord. You did not allow me to drown or sink. You saw the yearning of my soul and found me. You love me to wholeness and my heart is yours forever. O lover of my soul and my best friend!

- Chan ( 06 November 2009 )

Beautiful God

i am in awe
overjoyed
and grateful
wow...

you dance with me
you hold my hands
even when my tears are blinding me
you hold me close
you comfort me
even when my fears are lying...

thankyou :)
O God of Grace, Mercy, Hope, Comfort and Love.
Thankyou for your sovereignity

I love you

- Chan ( 20 May 2009)

The One Thing I do have

I may not have it all figured out, in fact the closer you come to me you realise just how much I dont know about life, about my own life, etc...but the one thing I do have is Jesus... And I've seen in trusting him the times I did with all my heart, those were the times there was no confusion and major doors and determining factors were opened up to me.

I may not have money right now, in fact all I have is 0 in my accounts and one minus, and most of the time when I do actually go out it's on the blessing of a friend, and it really takes getting used to cause I find myself calculating how much I earned in the 4 years that I worked and if only I had saved that money, but the one thing I do have is Jesus and since having him I always have what I need, even if the money comes through in the 11th hour, God has been pretty faithful, and I guess he is now teaching me to be faithful in the little...(and not freak out when you dont know how you going to pay for this and that)

I may not have a "carlos" now, and may not have had anyone significent for going on 9 years now, and even though people may say just hang in there, you sometimes like Geez God was I so messed up that its going on 10 years of fixing me? (thats on the bad day), because most days I'm aware the one thing I do have is Jesus... (see my previous poem Gentleman for what I think he thinks about me) and he really is more than enough and really sometimes surpises me in the funniest ways with his love and about the long time, when I look back at each year the issues I've conquered, i can only say I am glad that those things are sorted and not a part of my life anymore, so am grateful to being made complete and grateful for having his love and yes part of me sometimes wants more, but I do have Jesus :)! and that really is enough!

I may not be ministering right now, or knowing exactly where I fit in the body of Christ in the scheme of things, and on some days being a sitting duck when it seems everyone is running around does seem like hey did I hear right? But the one thing I do have is Jesus...And in this time of taking a step back I could once again begin to hear him and am grateful that he speaks, it's not always the exact hey God where are you taking me answers that I want, but I've learnt that he sometimes holds back in giving us the end destination so we don't run ahead without him.

I may not always be organized, self confident, hey even happy, or exactly how people think a Christian should be (hey in that case a lady, a student, a coloured, etc.etc...) but the one thing I do have is Jesus...And the best thing he told me recently is that He thinks I'm ok, so I dont have to stand at the door and watch others dance and enjoy him and think hey I first have to fix this and that, but my God thinks I'm ok and because of that I know can just enjoy his presence and that is where I'm growing and find my boldness, discipline and joy that surpasses sorry....

There are more may nots and the one thing I have is Jesus...But for now this is all I'll leave you all with...

For those who dont have that one thing...I trust that you wouldnt just shut the door or go on what you've heard or your own opinion, but ask in your heart of hears this Jesus to reveal himself to you. I dont have to do any convincing. You just have to ask sincerely and he will show up in a way you would understand. May you find the one thing we loves hide and seek :) (there is a scripture that says the deep things are hidden so we will seek them out ->
A quote in a song -" It's the glory of God to hide, a matter... It's the glory of a king to search it out....I wanna search you out, I love the way you hide, so I can find you, I wanna search you out" - this is not the only place I read this, but this is what i recently listened to)

For those who do have that one thing, I pray that that one thing will be more important than all the other things we have in life... for that one thing is the reason why we are all hear and only in that one thing do we have life...

John 1:3-4 Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. In him was life, and that life was the light of men.

And I know it's not always easy to maintain the balance in life, or even in our heads! but let us try.

Psalm 27
4 One thing I ask of the LORD,
this is what I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.

Some people know this yet dont see the sense of it...I dont know...In my case its this very one thing that gets me up and going again, even when I want out. Its the beauty of the Lord that is my life and my light in the midst of the darkness. I too have to fight to keep that one thing the one thing, in fact maybe alot of times other things win over, but this is my desire, what I seek that God would be the one that I dwell with and I thank him that from his side, nothing can seperate me from that love for as long as I live, to all who have received him, we become his children

John 1:12 Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God
-Chandre (10 june 2009)

This season

this season

i dont know
i dont know where to go
i dont know how to fix things
i dont know all the answers
i dont know how to make it
i dont know, I dont know

what i've seen
is when i give up
he can work and move

so even in my i don't knows
i'm giving up
God work and move
God keep the pieces of my heart together
And heal me once again

God help me in my relationship with others
Help them in their relationship with me
But mostly God,hold me.
So that I can be ok, even when I don't know.

Chandre - (21 Sep 2010)

A Bubble Parable

A Bubble Parable - Chandre (13 April 2005)

We find ourselves in this bubble, totally oblivious to the lives of others around us, bouncing along, not sure where we are going and what we're going to do when we get there. Along the way there are road signs, and flashing lights, and pointing index fingers, "Go this way", "Go That". I'm beginning to think my bubble will burst.

It's kinda hard to see clearly when the rays of different colours, beam off the edge of the bubble, temporary blinding us and making it very difficult to depend on your own intuition to make it through.

As I look into the others bubbles, I see a variety of reactions and expressions. Some lay calmly, almost asleep as their bubbles bounce over rocks, make last minute detours around rivers and just about miss huge, frightening trucks. Others, scream, throw fits and weep over the tiniest little stone.I see others with a determined expression, ready for anything, yet those very same people crash and bump, yet it doesn't seem to phase them. They're quite content having bruises all over!!? And then there are the inbetweeners, sort of similar to me... that see the rock ahead, am about to get scared, but then begin to trust and the bubble gently avoids the rock. Amazed I will rejoice, and wonder why I didn't trust in the first place, only to see the next rock and freak out.

Enough about bubbles, Where do you find yourself in life? Which bubble do u find yourself in? You see there's a part of this story that I've left out. The part that determines, where you're going, and exactly how the road is to there. You, See there was more than just people in bubbles in this story, and though it seemed that everything was left to chance, or coincidence, Someone greater than all those people and all those bubbles and all the rocks along the way was there and was in control of it all. The people who took matters in their own hands found the challenges were to great for the them. The people who rested in the knowledge that their lives are not their own sailed smoothly through most challenges. They weren't without trials, but the trials didn't master them. Still others, lived in Fear and the smallest test became a gigantic problem, while some who were still overcoming their fear as they saw the moment they trusted, they made through whatever they were going through.

The bottom line is when you find yourself in a bubble:

Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 3: 5 - 6

My heart in Your hands

Friday, 23 September 2005
I guess the only safe place and where it's meant to be for our hearts, is in His hands... Bible says Guard your heart, and the heart is deceitful...Let's give our hearts to him to heal and look after and to love.

My heart in Your hands
Contributed by Chandre De Wet

As I listen once again
I'm wondering if you could hold me
Can I rest my head on Your shoulder
knowing you or I'll never leave

Can You hold my heart inside your hands
I'm afraid I'd let it go
This relationship's so precious
I cannot afford to take any risks

You're the only one who knows me
You know me better than myself
Will You show me how to love You more
Show me how to bless Your heart

I'm standing here with outstretched arms
Praying you'll reach down
I cannot without You Lord
I'm clumsy with my heart

*Note...
This poem was written one night when after months of wondering if I give my all to God, what if I hurt him down the line, what if I'm not a christian down the line...I would ask friends if they ever felt the same and none did. One night I prayed and poured out my heart to God with regards to this, I thought of all the guys I had been involved with in the past, yet to open my heart completely and trust God was so hard...Eventually it led to a night of writing and praying and the above was one of the poems. See  more regarding the outcome of this poem -> http://hopeofglory.blogspot.com/2007/01/my-heart-in-your-hands.html

This is the Secret

verse 1:

I close my eyes

And I am surrounded

By the beauty of Your love

In pastures green

You make me lie down

And I find Your peace

Totally secure in You

Satisfied by Your sweet truth

Chorus:

This is the secret

And how can I not be in awe

Mystery revealed

And how can I not be overwhelmed

Jesus in me

My heart can’t contain this joy I’ve found

Companion’s with You

All of my days I’ll humbly bow

For You’ve chosen me, to know

The secret of Your glorious love…

verse 2:

Eyes open wide

And all I can see

Are traces of Your majesty

Creation bears witness

We shout Your praises

Inviting all to join in (this dance)

Hear the redeemed, say “I am free”

Hear the song, “He’s chosen me”

-Chan (4 February 2004)

Taken from:

• Psalm 25: 14 (amp)

14The secret [of the sweet, satisfying companionship] of the Lord have they who fear (revere and worship) Him, and He will show them His covenant and reveal to them its [deep, inner] meaning.

• Colossians 1:27

27To them God has chosen to make known among the Gentiles the glorious riches of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.

• Psalm 23

I breathe and I live

Sometimes, Lord You feel so far away
And I feel that I can't pray
And my tears, they are running down my face
And fear seems to overwhelm my faith

chorus:
But into your presence Lord I run
no matter what I feel
Your shadow it hides me, humbles me
and so I kneel
Love always close, Mercy near
You'll never leave
And it's in your presence that I breathe
I breathe and I live

Father, God, You are so faithful...
You say the Word and it stays true...
And while my life goes round and round(& round & round)
You remain the same...

chorus

bridge
One more time, I close my eyes
One more time, You forgive me
And though I fall, I am not fallen
And though I bleed, I will not die

And one more time, You lift me up!
And one more time, You rescue me!
And though I cry, You draw near
And though I weep, I know I'll dance again...

-Chan (Pre2002)

Constant

Sometimes just life itself’s a challenge
without being watched.
Sometimes just getting up in the morning’s
a battle to be won.
Sometimes faithful prayers seem faithless
and cries don’t reach the roof.
Sometimes I feel so far away
when my whole being longs for You.

Yet,Sometimes when everything’s so confusing
I know that You’re the truth.
And when everyone’s deserted me
I know that I’ll find You.
And when I’m running scared and lonely
Your love will shelter me.
When I’m feeling hurt and broken
I’ll find peace beneath Your wings.

Chorus:
Through all the shattered pieces of my heart
His love remains constant
Through all the hurt we cause,impose
His love remains constant
In our lowest moments,deepest mistakes
His love remains constant
Rollercoaster lives, Changing, Falling
He remains constant,
So constant

Cause when everything we see is falling
We’re to look beyond the seen.
Cause when everything seems huge and frightening
We’re to look within.
Cause when the grey clouds bring the storms and rain
The Sun still shines above.
When we’ve reached the bottom of this pit
His heart still burns with love.
Cause God is who He says He is,
Not a man that He should lie
And when man would push and shove to live
He would rather die.
Through lies deceit people with two faces
He remains the same
The sinner, the broken, the quitter,the lost
His ageless,constant aim

Never changing hope, never fading truth, endless love
You remain constant… so constant
My only hope, the truth, my love
You remain constant… so constant
-Chan (pre2002)

A Prayer to my Saviour

19 May 2002 - A Prayer to my Saviour

A great sacrifice, A precious gift
Given by One who’s heart of Love
Has room enough for me

Past hurts and Present fears
Threatening to Cloud my hope and vision
Stumbling as I try to be what You want

Lost faith in people, Grudges gained
The Image of You, fastly fading from me
I ask how much more can I take?

Reminded again of You
All answers, strength and Life in You
How could I forget You?

For what if You too forgot
Decided it was one too many times
And turned Your back on my sins

Your great Love kept me from being consumed
You gave it all for me
You became my Father and I Your Child

Shape me, Oh Lord, in Your Potters Hand
Fill me with your Love, Holiness and Joy
Teach me, and Mould me

I love You Lord, God of My heart
In Your Arms I find my peace
Without You I am lost

Thank You always, My Messiah
You saved me and I am
Eternally grateful

Thankyou

-Chandre

Deeper than deep

Deeper than deep
Never let me go
When my world crashes down
And the storm winds blow

When I’ve cried my last tear
And I’ve lost my last will
Deeper than Deep
Remain with me still
-Chan (pre2002)

The Foreverness of God…

Just been thinking about God and how everything he does is forever,eternal, never ending…

I think about His eternal love…undending…
I think about the cross how it was for all people, forever after that.
I think about how He made eternity for us.
I think about how He is outside of time. There’s just no end.
I think about how he said let there be light, and today that light is still reaching out, stretching and reaching galaxies, unknown till the light came and continues to go on.

Everything from God and in God is eternal, lasts forever. It is unending, knows no limits, no boundaries and continues to go out, reaching further and further, getting closer, yet still so far to go, and keep going.

So doesn’t it just seem right that when it comes to things of us, that You wouldn’t still work in Your forever way. That Your purposes in our lives are just events and not something that You are continuing and growing and changing.

Oh Lord when you saved us, it wasn’t only so we could now rest assured that we are going to heaven, it wasn’t only so that we can know our sins are now forgiven because of the blood of the lamb. It wasn’t a once off thing. It was an eternal ever changing, ever growing, ever shaping, ever taking us to the next glory, higher and higher, till we realise we only reached the tip of the iceberg and that you have even more install for us.

Eternal things are things that can’t be measured, can’t be put into a box, can’t stop it from moving because there are just no boundaries, no edges, no markings, it just keeps going where it’s never been before, new places, new dreams replacing old ones, newer dreams replacing the new ones, new joys, new challenges, yet new rewards, victories, only to find that the new is old again and there’s more in store.

Let us never stop seeking and serving this eternal God, let us never think that our love is enough, and always seek to be more, do more, love more, give more, show more, surrender more, to the God who’s more never ends. May we realise that what He began in us, wasn’t meant to end then, but that even now, he is longing for us to press in even more and not be satisfied with just yesterday’s blessings, but just desire, take hold of the abundance and the “more” he has!

May we forever be changed and want to be changed, be in His presence and desire to be, be humbled and want to be broken before and eternal God, who eternally loves, shapes and saves. May we always place our lives in His hands and allow His hands to mould us into what He had planned for us since the beginning of time.

Love you Lord.
-Chan(pre2002)

Take a breath

Take a breath
Slow down
You’re running way too fast
Hold on
Close your eyes
Hear my breathing
Listen to my voice

Let go
You’re holding on too tight
Your weights are pulling you back
Don’t worry
Take my load
It is easy and gentle
Let me carry you

Put out your hand
And quiet down
And you will feel my palms against yours

I never leave, nor do I sleep
I know your fears.
But if you won’t speak to me
I can’t show you what to do
And if I write the answers down
You wont understand if you don’t read

Trust me, everything will work out.
You just have to take it one step at a time…
Slowly now, there’s so much I still wanna show you, teach you
Aah, I see you are beginning to understand.
All I wanna do is hold you
Look after you
Be with you
Commune with you
Love you
Give you My peace

-Chan (pre 2002)

I will praise You, My Psalm

1) I will praise You, My Psalm (2002 and before)

I will praise You for all that You are
For You are more than everything
I will praise You regardless of what I feel
For this is bigger than emotions
I will praise You no matter who’s watching
For You are my song, and can’t be quieted
I will praise You for all of my days
For my day,my years,my life belongs to You
I will praise You early in the morning
For You have given me a brand new hope
I will praise You in the darkest of nights
For Your light will never be overshadowed
I will praise You when my heart is broken
For You are the healer of wounds
I will praise You when I reach higher heights
For without You I am lower than low
I will praise You for every good thing
For that simply means that it came from You
I will praise You for every grieving trial
For if I made it through it only means I’m stronger
I will praise You for every good friend in my life
For it only means for each friend put in my life,You have thought of me
I will praise You for my family
For You love me enough, not to leave me alone
I will praise you for every smile and laugh that comes from my lips
For it is only the joy of Your Salvation that makes me happy
I will praise You for every tear, and broken heart
For it is then that I feel Your comfort the most
I will praise You for my every breath
For it means that You have a purpose and hope for me
I will praise You even in my death
For it means at last I can be with you

I will praise You no matter what.
For You are everything,
My life, my being, my comfort, my strength, my love…
My God.

The daily life of a procrastinating student

The daily life of a procrastinating student (2007)

I cannot concentrate, with an empty stomach
Food makes me become erudite.
A host of words, I have to study
Like a gelatinous salp, I feel inside.

I ran to the kitchen, a few minutes ago
Time ticking on as I procrastinate
A dictionary, encyclopedia and varsity textbooks
I think I'll go and check on my flatmate...

I have now had my fill and socialized
Took an hour of power nap and slept
I think I feel ready to pick up my books
Oh, No, I have only thirty minutes left!

*This poem was written when I took part in a group called Word Expo, basically using the weekly words to write something, I used all the words below
* erudite
* flatmate
* host
* ran
* salp
* stomach
* study

If we can only hold on - For Steven Curtis Chapman Family

(written when i heard about the death of Maria Chapman - Aug 2008)

If we can only hold on

so much ashes, yet amidst it there's beauty
so much pain, yet in it lies a crown
so much brokenness, yet through it we are stronger
so much hate, yet we can find unending love

though life is hard, thats not the way the story needs to end
though times are tough, if we would only hang in there
there is a way, a hope, a road that leads to life
there is a God, who feels your pain, and lifts you up

If we can only hold on,
Look into his loving eyes
We'll find the strength
We'll find the breath to live

If we can only hold on,
look into his loving eyes
We'll see his for us
Even now...
His working out the plan to see us through

See Original Post here -> Remembering Maria

The Face of South Africa

The face of South Africa- Chandré De Wet
(2008)

The face of South Africa
is a multicoloured face
hair of various ethnicities
eyes from blue to black
many languages,dialects and slang
customs and culture a kaleidoscope

What is a South African?
Can one really define?
Except by the beat in the heart
of the one birthed in this nation
or adopted this as home

White, Black,Coloured, Indian, Chinese...
the list goes on and on...

I am a South African

An ode to you

An ode to you (May, 2008, chandre)

I am the girl that once was lost
Thank You
Hobo, Addict, Prostitute?
Where would I be?
And yet my heart was the one you picked up, dusted off and made your home in.

And though daily I still dissappoint
You promise never to leave
Cause you were there when I was formed
Spoke my first words,
broke my first vows
You were there when my mouth smiled
my eyes cried
And You'll be there, in the days of Why?
Till the day I die

What did I do to deserve you?
(thank God you dont work through karma)

Prince of my heart
Love of My life

Away from you I feel confused, insecure, ready to give up
With you, I am confident at peace and bubbling in gratitude and adoration

You are my very breath, the beat of my heart, the light of my eyes
You are the blush on my cheeks, the spring in my step, the lifter of my head

thankyou my friend, thankyou my love, thankyou

may the world see you too, when their eyes still open the next day, when they exchange vows at the altar, or witness the birth of their child, or walk, live and sleep in an earth covered with your glory.

i know you speak deeper than our ears can hear
i know that its hearts that see not eyes
i know that my life, and testimony is merely a small light compared to the light of life in you.

So I say, to God be the glory, GREAT things He has done
To Him be the glory forever and ever
At your name JESUS every knee and every tongue will confess
that You are Lord
My God, Be praised in our hearts, in our lives, in our homes in our world
Thankyou for ALL You've done, are doing and will do
May every heart experience the joy of knowing you
May that knowing become a river flowing out from us into the nations of the world, deeper and deeper,

till hearts are healed the same way ours was
till people sing "I am the girl that once was lost,Thank You"
till we stop seeing I, me and my, but You and Your heart for people
till we become an army, dead to self, imprisoned by the hurting

dead to sin, alive to Christ
having peace that passes understanding
joy unspeakable
love that is wide and long and high and deep
which surpasses knowledge
which is a well that overflows and allows nothing and no one to be untouched
a love that is more about giving than receiving.

thankyou that all this is possible in you
I've been so blessed to be chosen and pursued
and to now walk with and have you abide in me

Your kingdom come
Your will be done
On earth, in our lives
As it is in Heaven

I am the girl that now is found
Thank You

Gentleman

gentleman
i cannot believe nor understand
but just [revel] in your love
your perfection compared to my frailness
your purity compared to my multicoloured past
I just cant get to grips with it
but i am so blessed, so amazed, so humbled
and though i cannot figure it out
and definitely dont deserve it
I'm letting you define me
I'm letting you rewrite me
I'm letting you determine the steps
safe
in your arms
secure
in your presence
accepted in you
why do i search elsewhere
there's only one perfect gentleman
and I'm so grateful that you have chosen me
that you have graced me with your presence
that you've picked my heart for your love

may i never stop walking beside you
may i never let go of your hand
may i never stop looking into your eyes to define me
you are perfect, i am not
i can't see the way you see
i dont know the way to go
all i know is you've chosen me as your lady
and you are my perfect
gentleman

i end this poem saying
here am i
have my whole heart
my mind, my soul
define me, redefine
lover of my soul
i will never be what you are to me
but fortunately i have an eternity to try
love you gentleman
of my heart


-chan

Don't Give Up - I hope my life speaks

(there is a story behind this one, (coming soon!) but basically wrote this and it turns out this is what I need to share with someone else...)

Don't Give Up

I hope my life speaks
I hope it gives you a different ending
A different picture
To the one you see

I hope that you see the colour
Even just a glimpse of hope
I hope you will hold on
I hope you know you’ll make it
I did

I hope you’ll let go of the hurt
Let go of the reasons and reasonings
I hope that you’ll know you not alone

I hope you find an ounce of strength
I hope you’ll reach out
I hope you don’t believe the lie
That it’s not worth it

You are more than worth it
You are precious beyond what you can see
You are loved beyond measure
I hope you can see the glimmer of light
Even though ur world is dark
I hope you’ll feel the bit of sun
Even as you drenched in rain

Don’t give up, it’s not worth it
You are more than worth it
I made it and I will not give up on you making it
You can dream
You can hope
You will make it

-chan 11/2007

Intricate Detail

Intricate Detail

Before there was me, you predestined me
You determined my destiny
Before I was born, your eyes, they saw me
You wove my unformed body in the womb

chorus
Intricrate Detail, Every hair accounted for
Love without measure, The cross not to much to pay
Angels to keep me, You determine every step I take
God how you love us, You watching over me...

And when I fell, your hands they lifted me
Your blood has washed away my sin
My heart was broken, but in compassion you healed me
As I receive, You come to live within

You watch over me (repeat)


chan(2007)

Beauty's Curse and Redemption

Beauty's Curse and Redemption
Chandré De Wet (I hope to work on this further)

She hides deep within
accustomed to glances
This beautiful girl
caught up in romances
Her vision skewed
in her mirror no beauty
Outside a painting
an apathetic smile her duty

Yet inside she screams
(Her tears are remembered)
Her dreams are dwindling
yet crowd pleasing defended
Confused and alone
eyes dimmed to her loved ones
She grasps at the broken
feeling safe in shattered arms

Her beauty not skin deep
it reaches the depth of her soul
Yet she forfeits reality
and only sees a hole
If only her eyes opened
her true value she could know
She'd spend half her time in hiding
her inner self she'd show

She was made for greater pursuits
than her mirror and her loves
For she has greater pursuer
Unending love from above
Love with power to heal
to remove her blinding scales
Love reaches out ot hold her
though she fears, It never fails

This love will never give up
even when beauty tries to curse
This love increases her value
the consequences reversed
She'll dance and sing and shower beauty
her confidence from within
The hope of glory has reedemed her
the beauty of Christ within

No more hiding, Wake up Sleeping Beauty
there'll always be remaining glances
Your beauty, it captivates us
caught up in His dances
Your eyes are on your maker
His cross beam now your mirror
Your outside beauty trickles
from your inner beauty river!

Island

Oh Island,
Why do you hide
When you were made to shine
Why do you shun
Does your mirror lie?
Or is it my eyes?
Are you looking beyond
or do you look behind?

Oh Island,
Please won't you reveal
the hidden strengths
eternally seen
Unmask this warrior
Only show truth
Does painted glass speak
What the mind has chosen to deny?

Oh heart
Why do you fear?
Bravery and courage your destiny
You were made to lead, made to fight
Why do you begin to race
at the sight of evil
Is it not because you were made to overcome
Don't be afraid!
With love your motive,and destiny your guard
March, knowing the battle's already won
All you need to do is start.

Drunk Reality

completely drunk, drunk completely
com drunk pletely
ob liv ious
the buzz the numbness,
occasionally REALITY (I love you honey!)
bursting IN (Come here Sweetie Pie)
as I float
com Pletey Ob livious to
the Ruth, Truth, Tooth
did I say that Already?
My life, HELLO? My sweety pie is grown?
Swallowing this truth,
I reach instead for another sip
This freedom I think I feel, I float, enjoy
Completely, pletely? Unaware,
of The dungeon I am in.

- Chandre, 2007

*This poem was written when I took part in a group called Word Expo, basically using the weekly words to write something, I used all the words below except goitre (only because I forgot, would have still fit in this poem)
* drunk
* dungeon
* float
* goitre
* swallowing
* truth

I give up

I give up
Chandré De Wet
12 Oct 2008

running, running
closed doors
where to now
searching for a way some how

give me answers,
don't know how
or what or where or when
but hope that somehow
somebody, help me please?
can't you see I'm incomplete

looking, knocking
should i be copying
ratrace or embrace
discipline or a waste?

could it be
you just want me
to give up
shut up
look up
get up

or down on my knees
saying Jesus please
no one else can appease
or set my spirit at ease

I give this situation to you
only your hands can hold it
only you can shape it, make it into what you desire

i am merely clay
surrendering this day
wishing the old flesh away
Lord come and make me ok
or at least the way
i should be

I give up
and I give you all that I am

take me and teach me
and lead me into your way everlasting

Oak

"oak"
- chandré de wet 20/07/09

Stripped of all my former glory
every adornment, achievement on the floor
exposed to the elements, bared to the storms
the wind threatening to remove my last source
till nothing remains but bark and twiggs and branches
but rooted deep, receiving from unseen waters
nothing on the outside, yet anchored on the inside
seemingly no hope, yet new life just a season away...
And even in the midst of winter
Birds still chirping on my arms, People still finding peace and shade in my limited stature...
Maybe winter isn't so bad after all...
Maybe winter strips us of all that is us, till our only hope is the water from within...
And maybe even with all the tears, and exposure, coldness and death, those who embrace and hold on
are allowing for a harvest of new life...
A seed has to die for new life to begin.
We remain oaks of righteousness in summer or winter because our righteousness stems from our depth in God...
This is only visible in winter.
Why does the oak remain?, even after rain, wind, storms, losing their leaves...
Because all along the strength of the oak was not the bright sunshine or the colourful spring, but the life within, the deep, inner, hidden, source...
The living water of John 4...
Our Christ within, the hope of Glory


So many branches? So many Stories? Complexities? I like the oak tree's camoflage stems :) and the extreme greenness...



Better

better than yesterday
better

not farther than yesterday
not nearer to tomorrow
but better

not closer to answers
not far from the pain
but better

still dont know how the story ends
still trying to make ends meet
still picking up the broken pieces
still trying to hope again

but better than yesterday
better than before
better must count for something
better the beginning of hope

better than yesterday
better

-chan
22 April 2009

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