Do you know how it feels

Do you know how it feels - Chandré De Wet -1997

I had finally found love, my love had finally found me
We were perfect together, thought we'd stay so forever
But then I had to go, Oh why did I not know
That a simple mistake, would cause a permanent heartbreak

It's all my fault, I shouldn't have been so confused
I should have kept my heart true, but my colours shone through
and what we had was lost forever...

Chorus

Do you know how it feels, to hurt the one you love
Do you know how it feels to lose the one you hurt
Do you know how it feels to love the one you lost
And if only they'd come back , if only
You'd show them you have changed, if only
And if things were back the same, if only
If only they'd come back to you

Everytime I look your way, it reminds me of the day
We had first been together, our first kiss of ever
But oh, how things have changed, I'm not the one who you embrace
I'm not your thoughts when evening starts, I'm the one who broke your heart

It's all my fault, I shouldn't have been so confused
I should have kept my heart true, but my colours shone through
and what we had was lost forever...

Chorus
Repeat Chorus
Repeat - Do you know how it feels till fade...

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behind the song: wrote this after hurting someone very important to me back in the day. I generally don't write love songs, as tend to write where I'm at and therefore it's more about God now, but friends think this lyrics and tune is good enough to become a hit :)

Call

My heart is still so far from where it should be
Selfishness and sin creeps in so quickly
And muddles up all my best intentions
Yet still you call, "Follow me!"

You say "Give it up, Lose your Life"
I look around, surely you can't use little frail old me?
But that is exactly how beautiful
your upside down gospel is.

You call cheaters, liars, adulterers and murderers
Zacheus, Judas Peter and Paul
All had the opportunity to meet
and be transformed by you.

A little bit of hope is enough to start a fire
that blazes across homes, communities and nations
You whisper in my ear
"Did you  forget who you are?"

"You are my daughter,(*son)
 You were made in my image
All the days ordained for you were written in my book
before one of them came to be!

I am with you, I will never leave you
And will work all things together for your good
Seek first my kingdom, my peace, my rest and and my call
and all these things, the desires of your heart will be added to you!"

I have a choice to hold onto my life
Let comfort, fear, insecurity, and deep down misery keep me bound
Or let go and say "Yes Lord, Here I am, Send me!"

I let go and let you complete my story, lead me?
One sucks the life out of me,
The other to a life I could not have made on my own,
Christ in me.

Here I stand again on the brink
of myself and your dream
I say "Yes Lord!"
You accept me with my sins and frailty.

Cause only moulded by You will I be
A shiny reflection of Your glory.
I don't know what or how or when
But I surrender once again, My Lord,Father and King

And so the world gets changed
One my one by broken people like me
Upside down gospel,
isn't it? :)

     - Chandré De Wet (21/06/2011)

Beautymaking

Chip Chip Chip
God's chipping away
The chaff and the chaos
the excuses and complaints
Stripping and Pruning
Prodding and Testing
My good intentions
Checking my motives
My promises, My vows
till I'm gold refined by fire

Will I trust in You Lord
Will I let go what I hold onto so tightly
Legitimate needs, Honourable dreams
But idols if not orchestrated by You
why am i fighting your beautymaking process
why am i struggling to surrender
those who trust in you will not be put to shame
i will make the Lord my refuge.
Here I am Lord
I am afraid, I am scared
but I know it's only in You
that I find my rest,all that I am.

Break me, mould me, take away, rebuild me
Teach me, show me, lead me, guide me
Love me, whisper to me, hold me, Comfort me
Anchor me, Bless me, Restore me, Ressurect me
Just don't let go of me
And don't stop working me
Even though I am stubborn at times
May I become all that you want me to be O Lord
Let me become a child, your daughter, your holy people
Let me decrease and you increase
till all all sees
Is Your glory in me.
Christ in me, the hope of Glory!
Don't give up on me Lord,
Keep interceding for me :)

-chandrejoanne
10 June 2011

The Crown of Friendship

(still to be cleaned up, spoken about for years, only now made up into words...)


The Crown of Friendship
By Chandre De Wet


Did you know, friendship is a crown... Given to you by God. Adorning your head. So at this stage all the lonely people check out as they feel they don't have a crown, but wait. That crown is not people... The crown is Jesus... We are given a crown of friendship and that crown is Jesus, so even if we have no people in our lives we still have the one main, best, dearest, truest friend, Jesus, and really that is sufficient, enough!...

In time, or through Life, God adds people to our lives (and removes). Every person that he adds to our lives, every friendship, is a jewel on the crown. Sometimes you have big jewels, some are precious and rare. Some people have few jewels on their crowns, some have many, Some have different jewels and sometimes you'll have none...but even if your crown is empty, you are not alone as you have the best friend of all Jesus...and he is the crown that brings you more gems, but ultimately people are just an added blessing to the crown of friendship you already have!

Birthday(29th) Invitation Poem

Long after eight..
Possibly two hours late
If you wish to put on weight
Or merely hang with your mate

(Un) Fortunately no wine...
"But Hey aren't you 29!"
This decision is not entirely mine
But Coca Cola should also be fine!?

After Singing and seeking more (at the conference.)
We might be boogying on the floor
Its Ok if you're not rhythmic to the core
Zinzi, out of 10 I bet you'd score me a four!

Or maybe a game of Mafia
Its been so long I can hear some of you cheer!
Whether we play or talk, or just having u guys near
I think the point of my poem is becoming clear

Every year, Christmas in July
There is so much symbolism to this I can tie
25 means grace intesified
A celebration of Grace, is exactly why!

So if you're there on Saturday night
10 till late, this is your invite
Depending on the numbers we may have to club together for daait :)
But lets try and make a way...If you're there I think it will be tight!

Hope you can make a plan
Ladies and Guys be a MAN!
Only this year to party in my 20's I still can
After that, my birthday parties may be banned! (YEAH RIGHT!)

So come on people, gifts not compulsory,
I love you and I hope you love me
Come celebrate and make my 29th birthday crazy!
I'm still here, I'm still blessed, There's Grace what a better reason to Party!

You BETTER BE THERE!

- Chandre (22 July 2009) inviting people to my 29th birthday on 25 July 2009

Everlasting Arms

I once told someone "Just hold me..." They couldn't just hold me. Nor could they understand that was all I wanted. To be held. The assurance and freedom that comes from being in someone's arms. However,
even if they could just hold me, I realise now the yearning and longing I had was so much deeper. Human arms wouldn't do. I now understand it was my spirit crying out to His Spirit. Deep calls to deep, the Psalmist says.

The best thing about it all is that though my searching to be held was taking me on a path of destruction, the Lord knew. He saw, He heard, He intervened. And now I find myself months later learning to be held by everlasting arms. Dancing with the lifter of my head. Adoring the lover of my soul. Being healed, freed, mended, pruned, shaped, enlarged, but mostly, loved.

Thank you Lord. You did not allow me to drown or sink. You saw the yearning of my soul and found me. You love me to wholeness and my heart is yours forever. O lover of my soul and my best friend!

- Chan ( 06 November 2009 )

Beautiful God

i am in awe
overjoyed
and grateful
wow...

you dance with me
you hold my hands
even when my tears are blinding me
you hold me close
you comfort me
even when my fears are lying...

thankyou :)
O God of Grace, Mercy, Hope, Comfort and Love.
Thankyou for your sovereignity

I love you

- Chan ( 20 May 2009)