Call

My heart is still so far from where it should be
Selfishness and sin creeps in so quickly
And muddles up all my best intentions
Yet still you call, "Follow me!"

You say "Give it up, Lose your Life"
I look around, surely you can't use little frail old me?
But that is exactly how beautiful
your upside down gospel is.

You call cheaters, liars, adulterers and murderers
Zacheus, Judas Peter and Paul
All had the opportunity to meet
and be transformed by you.

A little bit of hope is enough to start a fire
that blazes across homes, communities and nations
You whisper in my ear
"Did you  forget who you are?"

"You are my daughter,(*son)
 You were made in my image
All the days ordained for you were written in my book
before one of them came to be!

I am with you, I will never leave you
And will work all things together for your good
Seek first my kingdom, my peace, my rest and and my call
and all these things, the desires of your heart will be added to you!"

I have a choice to hold onto my life
Let comfort, fear, insecurity, and deep down misery keep me bound
Or let go and say "Yes Lord, Here I am, Send me!"

I let go and let you complete my story, lead me?
One sucks the life out of me,
The other to a life I could not have made on my own,
Christ in me.

Here I stand again on the brink
of myself and your dream
I say "Yes Lord!"
You accept me with my sins and frailty.

Cause only moulded by You will I be
A shiny reflection of Your glory.
I don't know what or how or when
But I surrender once again, My Lord,Father and King

And so the world gets changed
One my one by broken people like me
Upside down gospel,
isn't it? :)

     - Chandré De Wet (21/06/2011)