The desire of my heart - Poem

my heart,
my words,
my mind,
my spirit,

just a shadow of

your heart,
your words,
your mind,
your spirit

help me to shine

your light
not mine

tell

your story
not my glory...

A world to be reached
People to teach
I am not enough
But with You I can do all things

You call us to sow, to water, but you will grow
You remind us to go, but you will do

Lord, remind me

to keep the focus
Christ the foundation
Christ in me the inspiration
Christ crucified the message
Christ the motive
let me not lose the focus

people may not understand
but you are the softener of hearts
my words sometimes to0 simple or complicated
but you speak all our hearts languages

To you O Lord I commit

my heart,
my words,
my mind,
my spirit,

So my life may lead many to

your heart,
your words,
your mind,
your spirit

The desire of my heart



19 June 2007 posted on FB, written in that time

Call

My heart is still so far from where it should be
Selfishness and sin creeps in so quickly
And muddles up all my best intentions
Yet still you call, "Follow me!"

You say "Give it up, Lose your Life"
I look around, surely you can't use little frail old me?
But that is exactly how beautiful
your upside down gospel is.

You call cheaters, liars, adulterers and murderers
Zacheus, Judas Peter and Paul
All had the opportunity to meet
and be transformed by you.

A little bit of hope is enough to start a fire
that blazes across homes, communities and nations
You whisper in my ear
"Did you  forget who you are?"

"You are my daughter,(*son)
 You were made in my image
All the days ordained for you were written in my book
before one of them came to be!

I am with you, I will never leave you
And will work all things together for your good
Seek first my kingdom, my peace, my rest and and my call
and all these things, the desires of your heart will be added to you!"

I have a choice to hold onto my life
Let comfort, fear, insecurity, and deep down misery keep me bound
Or let go and say "Yes Lord, Here I am, Send me!"

I let go and let you complete my story, lead me?
One sucks the life out of me,
The other to a life I could not have made on my own,
Christ in me.

Here I stand again on the brink
of myself and your dream
I say "Yes Lord!"
You accept me with my sins and frailty.

Cause only moulded by You will I be
A shiny reflection of Your glory.
I don't know what or how or when
But I surrender once again, My Lord,Father and King

And so the world gets changed
One my one by broken people like me
Upside down gospel,
isn't it? :)

     - Chandré De Wet (21/06/2011)

Beautymaking

Chip Chip Chip
God's chipping away
The chaff and the chaos
the excuses and complaints
Stripping and Pruning
Prodding and Testing
My good intentions
Checking my motives
My promises, My vows
till I'm gold refined by fire

Will I trust in You Lord
Will I let go what I hold onto so tightly
Legitimate needs, Honourable dreams
But idols if not orchestrated by You
why am i fighting your beautymaking process
why am i struggling to surrender
those who trust in you will not be put to shame
i will make the Lord my refuge.
Here I am Lord
I am afraid, I am scared
but I know it's only in You
that I find my rest,all that I am.

Break me, mould me, take away, rebuild me
Teach me, show me, lead me, guide me
Love me, whisper to me, hold me, Comfort me
Anchor me, Bless me, Restore me, Ressurect me
Just don't let go of me
And don't stop working me
Even though I am stubborn at times
May I become all that you want me to be O Lord
Let me become a child, your daughter, your holy people
Let me decrease and you increase
till all all sees
Is Your glory in me.
Christ in me, the hope of Glory!
Don't give up on me Lord,
Keep interceding for me :)

-chandrejoanne
10 June 2011

Birthday(29th) Invitation Poem

Long after eight..
Possibly two hours late
If you wish to put on weight
Or merely hang with your mate

(Un) Fortunately no wine...
"But Hey aren't you 29!"
This decision is not entirely mine
But Coca Cola should also be fine!?

After Singing and seeking more (at the conference.)
We might be boogying on the floor
Its Ok if you're not rhythmic to the core
Zinzi, out of 10 I bet you'd score me a four!

Or maybe a game of Mafia
Its been so long I can hear some of you cheer!
Whether we play or talk, or just having u guys near
I think the point of my poem is becoming clear

Every year, Christmas in July
There is so much symbolism to this I can tie
25 means grace intesified
A celebration of Grace, is exactly why!

So if you're there on Saturday night
10 till late, this is your invite
Depending on the numbers we may have to club together for daait :)
But lets try and make a way...If you're there I think it will be tight!

Hope you can make a plan
Ladies and Guys be a MAN!
Only this year to party in my 20's I still can
After that, my birthday parties may be banned! (YEAH RIGHT!)

So come on people, gifts not compulsory,
I love you and I hope you love me
Come celebrate and make my 29th birthday crazy!
I'm still here, I'm still blessed, There's Grace what a better reason to Party!

You BETTER BE THERE!

- Chandre (22 July 2009) inviting people to my 29th birthday on 25 July 2009

Beautiful God

i am in awe
overjoyed
and grateful
wow...

you dance with me
you hold my hands
even when my tears are blinding me
you hold me close
you comfort me
even when my fears are lying...

thankyou :)
O God of Grace, Mercy, Hope, Comfort and Love.
Thankyou for your sovereignity

I love you

- Chan ( 20 May 2009)

This season

this season

i dont know
i dont know where to go
i dont know how to fix things
i dont know all the answers
i dont know how to make it
i dont know, I dont know

what i've seen
is when i give up
he can work and move

so even in my i don't knows
i'm giving up
God work and move
God keep the pieces of my heart together
And heal me once again

God help me in my relationship with others
Help them in their relationship with me
But mostly God,hold me.
So that I can be ok, even when I don't know.

Chandre - (21 Sep 2010)

My heart in Your hands

Friday, 23 September 2005
I guess the only safe place and where it's meant to be for our hearts, is in His hands... Bible says Guard your heart, and the heart is deceitful...Let's give our hearts to him to heal and look after and to love.

My heart in Your hands
Contributed by Chandre De Wet

As I listen once again
I'm wondering if you could hold me
Can I rest my head on Your shoulder
knowing you or I'll never leave

Can You hold my heart inside your hands
I'm afraid I'd let it go
This relationship's so precious
I cannot afford to take any risks

You're the only one who knows me
You know me better than myself
Will You show me how to love You more
Show me how to bless Your heart

I'm standing here with outstretched arms
Praying you'll reach down
I cannot without You Lord
I'm clumsy with my heart

*Note...
This poem was written one night when after months of wondering if I give my all to God, what if I hurt him down the line, what if I'm not a christian down the line...I would ask friends if they ever felt the same and none did. One night I prayed and poured out my heart to God with regards to this, I thought of all the guys I had been involved with in the past, yet to open my heart completely and trust God was so hard...Eventually it led to a night of writing and praying and the above was one of the poems. See  more regarding the outcome of this poem -> http://hopeofglory.blogspot.com/2007/01/my-heart-in-your-hands.html

A Prayer to my Saviour

19 May 2002 - A Prayer to my Saviour

A great sacrifice, A precious gift
Given by One who’s heart of Love
Has room enough for me

Past hurts and Present fears
Threatening to Cloud my hope and vision
Stumbling as I try to be what You want

Lost faith in people, Grudges gained
The Image of You, fastly fading from me
I ask how much more can I take?

Reminded again of You
All answers, strength and Life in You
How could I forget You?

For what if You too forgot
Decided it was one too many times
And turned Your back on my sins

Your great Love kept me from being consumed
You gave it all for me
You became my Father and I Your Child

Shape me, Oh Lord, in Your Potters Hand
Fill me with your Love, Holiness and Joy
Teach me, and Mould me

I love You Lord, God of My heart
In Your Arms I find my peace
Without You I am lost

Thank You always, My Messiah
You saved me and I am
Eternally grateful

Thankyou

-Chandre

Deeper than deep

Deeper than deep
Never let me go
When my world crashes down
And the storm winds blow

When I’ve cried my last tear
And I’ve lost my last will
Deeper than Deep
Remain with me still
-Chan (pre2002)

Take a breath

Take a breath
Slow down
You’re running way too fast
Hold on
Close your eyes
Hear my breathing
Listen to my voice

Let go
You’re holding on too tight
Your weights are pulling you back
Don’t worry
Take my load
It is easy and gentle
Let me carry you

Put out your hand
And quiet down
And you will feel my palms against yours

I never leave, nor do I sleep
I know your fears.
But if you won’t speak to me
I can’t show you what to do
And if I write the answers down
You wont understand if you don’t read

Trust me, everything will work out.
You just have to take it one step at a time…
Slowly now, there’s so much I still wanna show you, teach you
Aah, I see you are beginning to understand.
All I wanna do is hold you
Look after you
Be with you
Commune with you
Love you
Give you My peace

-Chan (pre 2002)

I will praise You, My Psalm

1) I will praise You, My Psalm (2002 and before)

I will praise You for all that You are
For You are more than everything
I will praise You regardless of what I feel
For this is bigger than emotions
I will praise You no matter who’s watching
For You are my song, and can’t be quieted
I will praise You for all of my days
For my day,my years,my life belongs to You
I will praise You early in the morning
For You have given me a brand new hope
I will praise You in the darkest of nights
For Your light will never be overshadowed
I will praise You when my heart is broken
For You are the healer of wounds
I will praise You when I reach higher heights
For without You I am lower than low
I will praise You for every good thing
For that simply means that it came from You
I will praise You for every grieving trial
For if I made it through it only means I’m stronger
I will praise You for every good friend in my life
For it only means for each friend put in my life,You have thought of me
I will praise You for my family
For You love me enough, not to leave me alone
I will praise you for every smile and laugh that comes from my lips
For it is only the joy of Your Salvation that makes me happy
I will praise You for every tear, and broken heart
For it is then that I feel Your comfort the most
I will praise You for my every breath
For it means that You have a purpose and hope for me
I will praise You even in my death
For it means at last I can be with you

I will praise You no matter what.
For You are everything,
My life, my being, my comfort, my strength, my love…
My God.

The daily life of a procrastinating student

The daily life of a procrastinating student (2007)

I cannot concentrate, with an empty stomach
Food makes me become erudite.
A host of words, I have to study
Like a gelatinous salp, I feel inside.

I ran to the kitchen, a few minutes ago
Time ticking on as I procrastinate
A dictionary, encyclopedia and varsity textbooks
I think I'll go and check on my flatmate...

I have now had my fill and socialized
Took an hour of power nap and slept
I think I feel ready to pick up my books
Oh, No, I have only thirty minutes left!

*This poem was written when I took part in a group called Word Expo, basically using the weekly words to write something, I used all the words below
* erudite
* flatmate
* host
* ran
* salp
* stomach
* study

The Face of South Africa

The face of South Africa- Chandré De Wet
(2008)

The face of South Africa
is a multicoloured face
hair of various ethnicities
eyes from blue to black
many languages,dialects and slang
customs and culture a kaleidoscope

What is a South African?
Can one really define?
Except by the beat in the heart
of the one birthed in this nation
or adopted this as home

White, Black,Coloured, Indian, Chinese...
the list goes on and on...

I am a South African

An ode to you

An ode to you (May, 2008, chandre)

I am the girl that once was lost
Thank You
Hobo, Addict, Prostitute?
Where would I be?
And yet my heart was the one you picked up, dusted off and made your home in.

And though daily I still dissappoint
You promise never to leave
Cause you were there when I was formed
Spoke my first words,
broke my first vows
You were there when my mouth smiled
my eyes cried
And You'll be there, in the days of Why?
Till the day I die

What did I do to deserve you?
(thank God you dont work through karma)

Prince of my heart
Love of My life

Away from you I feel confused, insecure, ready to give up
With you, I am confident at peace and bubbling in gratitude and adoration

You are my very breath, the beat of my heart, the light of my eyes
You are the blush on my cheeks, the spring in my step, the lifter of my head

thankyou my friend, thankyou my love, thankyou

may the world see you too, when their eyes still open the next day, when they exchange vows at the altar, or witness the birth of their child, or walk, live and sleep in an earth covered with your glory.

i know you speak deeper than our ears can hear
i know that its hearts that see not eyes
i know that my life, and testimony is merely a small light compared to the light of life in you.

So I say, to God be the glory, GREAT things He has done
To Him be the glory forever and ever
At your name JESUS every knee and every tongue will confess
that You are Lord
My God, Be praised in our hearts, in our lives, in our homes in our world
Thankyou for ALL You've done, are doing and will do
May every heart experience the joy of knowing you
May that knowing become a river flowing out from us into the nations of the world, deeper and deeper,

till hearts are healed the same way ours was
till people sing "I am the girl that once was lost,Thank You"
till we stop seeing I, me and my, but You and Your heart for people
till we become an army, dead to self, imprisoned by the hurting

dead to sin, alive to Christ
having peace that passes understanding
joy unspeakable
love that is wide and long and high and deep
which surpasses knowledge
which is a well that overflows and allows nothing and no one to be untouched
a love that is more about giving than receiving.

thankyou that all this is possible in you
I've been so blessed to be chosen and pursued
and to now walk with and have you abide in me

Your kingdom come
Your will be done
On earth, in our lives
As it is in Heaven

I am the girl that now is found
Thank You

Gentleman

gentleman
i cannot believe nor understand
but just [revel] in your love
your perfection compared to my frailness
your purity compared to my multicoloured past
I just cant get to grips with it
but i am so blessed, so amazed, so humbled
and though i cannot figure it out
and definitely dont deserve it
I'm letting you define me
I'm letting you rewrite me
I'm letting you determine the steps
safe
in your arms
secure
in your presence
accepted in you
why do i search elsewhere
there's only one perfect gentleman
and I'm so grateful that you have chosen me
that you have graced me with your presence
that you've picked my heart for your love

may i never stop walking beside you
may i never let go of your hand
may i never stop looking into your eyes to define me
you are perfect, i am not
i can't see the way you see
i dont know the way to go
all i know is you've chosen me as your lady
and you are my perfect
gentleman

i end this poem saying
here am i
have my whole heart
my mind, my soul
define me, redefine
lover of my soul
i will never be what you are to me
but fortunately i have an eternity to try
love you gentleman
of my heart


-chan

Don't Give Up - I hope my life speaks

(there is a story behind this one, (coming soon!) but basically wrote this and it turns out this is what I need to share with someone else...)

Don't Give Up

I hope my life speaks
I hope it gives you a different ending
A different picture
To the one you see

I hope that you see the colour
Even just a glimpse of hope
I hope you will hold on
I hope you know you’ll make it
I did

I hope you’ll let go of the hurt
Let go of the reasons and reasonings
I hope that you’ll know you not alone

I hope you find an ounce of strength
I hope you’ll reach out
I hope you don’t believe the lie
That it’s not worth it

You are more than worth it
You are precious beyond what you can see
You are loved beyond measure
I hope you can see the glimmer of light
Even though ur world is dark
I hope you’ll feel the bit of sun
Even as you drenched in rain

Don’t give up, it’s not worth it
You are more than worth it
I made it and I will not give up on you making it
You can dream
You can hope
You will make it

-chan 11/2007

Beauty's Curse and Redemption

Beauty's Curse and Redemption
Chandré De Wet (I hope to work on this further)

She hides deep within
accustomed to glances
This beautiful girl
caught up in romances
Her vision skewed
in her mirror no beauty
Outside a painting
an apathetic smile her duty

Yet inside she screams
(Her tears are remembered)
Her dreams are dwindling
yet crowd pleasing defended
Confused and alone
eyes dimmed to her loved ones
She grasps at the broken
feeling safe in shattered arms

Her beauty not skin deep
it reaches the depth of her soul
Yet she forfeits reality
and only sees a hole
If only her eyes opened
her true value she could know
She'd spend half her time in hiding
her inner self she'd show

She was made for greater pursuits
than her mirror and her loves
For she has greater pursuer
Unending love from above
Love with power to heal
to remove her blinding scales
Love reaches out ot hold her
though she fears, It never fails

This love will never give up
even when beauty tries to curse
This love increases her value
the consequences reversed
She'll dance and sing and shower beauty
her confidence from within
The hope of glory has reedemed her
the beauty of Christ within

No more hiding, Wake up Sleeping Beauty
there'll always be remaining glances
Your beauty, it captivates us
caught up in His dances
Your eyes are on your maker
His cross beam now your mirror
Your outside beauty trickles
from your inner beauty river!

Island

Oh Island,
Why do you hide
When you were made to shine
Why do you shun
Does your mirror lie?
Or is it my eyes?
Are you looking beyond
or do you look behind?

Oh Island,
Please won't you reveal
the hidden strengths
eternally seen
Unmask this warrior
Only show truth
Does painted glass speak
What the mind has chosen to deny?

Oh heart
Why do you fear?
Bravery and courage your destiny
You were made to lead, made to fight
Why do you begin to race
at the sight of evil
Is it not because you were made to overcome
Don't be afraid!
With love your motive,and destiny your guard
March, knowing the battle's already won
All you need to do is start.

Drunk Reality

completely drunk, drunk completely
com drunk pletely
ob liv ious
the buzz the numbness,
occasionally REALITY (I love you honey!)
bursting IN (Come here Sweetie Pie)
as I float
com Pletey Ob livious to
the Ruth, Truth, Tooth
did I say that Already?
My life, HELLO? My sweety pie is grown?
Swallowing this truth,
I reach instead for another sip
This freedom I think I feel, I float, enjoy
Completely, pletely? Unaware,
of The dungeon I am in.

- Chandre, 2007

*This poem was written when I took part in a group called Word Expo, basically using the weekly words to write something, I used all the words below except goitre (only because I forgot, would have still fit in this poem)
* drunk
* dungeon
* float
* goitre
* swallowing
* truth

I give up

I give up
Chandré De Wet
12 Oct 2008

running, running
closed doors
where to now
searching for a way some how

give me answers,
don't know how
or what or where or when
but hope that somehow
somebody, help me please?
can't you see I'm incomplete

looking, knocking
should i be copying
ratrace or embrace
discipline or a waste?

could it be
you just want me
to give up
shut up
look up
get up

or down on my knees
saying Jesus please
no one else can appease
or set my spirit at ease

I give this situation to you
only your hands can hold it
only you can shape it, make it into what you desire

i am merely clay
surrendering this day
wishing the old flesh away
Lord come and make me ok
or at least the way
i should be

I give up
and I give you all that I am

take me and teach me
and lead me into your way everlasting